| so lately things have been super amazing with Nick, but it kinda worries me that someone keeps kinda talking to him. like, its not talking but there has been shit said from her apparently about me, and its kinda really upsetting that he still talks to her /: i dont know what to do about it, it really hurts me. like its obvious that i dislike her and i tell him how much i hate her but they still talk and its so not fair. if i were to talk to someone he doesnt like id prob get in trouble or whatever. maybe im just really insecure /: which i totally am. i never feel im good enough. never ever. and when he goes off flirting with other girls it makes me feel even worse. i cant bring it up because hell just deny everything anyway. i dont know what to do about it, and im NOT gonna break up with him for it. i just wish he knew how much it hurts me when he does stuff like that. and im so sure he like prob makes plans behind my back with girls but they never go through, so i hope, but its just driving me up the walls. im only writing this here because no one really reads it and i need to vent. i just feel like im never good enough, and i shouldnt be feeling this way /: |
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| i knew things would work out in the end. Im in love with Nicholas Castro. He means the world to me. |
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| goodbye 2007
hello 2008. 2007 consisted of:
-going out with some retarded boy that wouldnt even talk to me. and was gross. thank god that was over.
-started talking to nick a lot more than normal and started having feelings for him again, and we started dating and i couldnt be any more happier
-party party party
-smokinnn that good stuff
-quit smoking,
-then started again
-party party party
-nick and i broke up a couple times
-got back together
-fell in love
-more parties
idk what else but ummmm yes overall 2007 was alright. ive been really really happy with nick whats what made it so great. 2008 will prob be even better ^_^ |
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| I havent written in this thing for a while. So Ill do it now. Girls are still lame. Still hate most of them. Things with Nick are more than amazing. He keeps me sane. Yes its true we have our stupid time periods where things get all blah but at the end of it all, he still has me, and i still have him. He makes me the most happiest girl in the world every second of the day; even when im not with him. This month will be nine months, and each day my feelings just get stronger and stronger and stronger. He always makes me happy, and even if im sad he'll go out of his way to make me smile. We've been through a lot, hard times, good times, sad times; and im just so happy to have him. I love him more than anything; he is my everything. yes this was cheezy but who cares, no one reads this. blahblah im actually doing good in school this year ^_^ which is goooood. ok im done with this _end. |
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| oooh how i loathe most females. why degrade yourself and hit on someone who is already in a relationship and swear something is gonna happen? fucking shit. go die. youre ugly anyway. thank you. |
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